Doesnt Make Sense
CLICK ... i turn off the lights and my room plunges into darkness and as i turn my face from the wall towards the room's length, the darkness seems ever so more dark and i stumble to find my bed that has been there all my life and i immediately realise how is it possible that i lose track of where my bed is each night when i close the light, i stop, and then tell myself, probably this happens with a lot of other things in life .. so be it with this .. as i lie on the bed, i feel like ive just been offered a bed of roses in heaven, why .. because i was tired, and straightening my back was the only thing i could think of ... but ... theres something different tonight, last night when the moon light had lit my room with its sparkle ... i was looking at the things it made to glow and i wanted to go to sleep because i needed to rest my mind that had been working the whole day, why rest .. because i wanted to wake up fresh for the day that had to follow, but tonight .. when i lied ! down and felt at ease, i wasnt so energetic about going to sleep and waking up fresh .. why .. because i wondered, i woke up fresh this morning, but look at my state right now .. tired .. disoriented .. not thinking clearly .. a thousand things on my mind and i cant concentrate on neither one of them .. why is that everyday starts of afresh .. and ends up like this .. doesnt make sense .. and sometimes when things dont make sense .. youre forced to ponder upon them even when the most needed thing in front of you would be sleep .. i wonder why .. i know people are sent in this world to live and pray in front of God to make Him happy and to help eachother .. what am i doing .. what are others doing .. surely they have the same God as mine .. didnt they get the same message ? .. then why do i feel that i need to help others and im guilty of not thanking Him enough and all the others are going just fine .. why is that i've been told to build my life up .. stand on my own...
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